a mushy look back...

i hate to get all sentimental, but i can't believe that the deployment will be over tomorrow! thinking about it really brings me to tears - happy ones of course.... but also out of amazement. i can remember the night zach left: i drove his truck home, crawled into bed, and cried myself to sleep. the next day i crawled out of bed and dragged myself to an anatomy lab. i was on the verge of tears the entire time - i actually ended up leaving because i couldn't make it through the class. those first few weeks i thought it would never get better.

oh gosh, and last Christmas....unexpected bouts of crying...uncontrollably bawling at the end of juno when juno's boyfriend layed down next to her after she gave up the baby. i know people thought i gave up a baby or something.

but, i made it - by the grace of God. He has been so completely faithful. when i moved to clarksville, i didn't expect to make friends like the ones i have from home. but i have made friends that will never be able to get rid of me now. and i don't just go to church - i feel connected and i love my church family. i finally figured what i felt was the right fit with school and career choice. i could seriously go on and on about all the blessings that came out of the deployment. not to say it was all easy, but it was so worth it in the end.

now, the new frontier: marriage with the husband home :) haha. seriously, i can't wait!