removed.

yesterday was sort of blah. the whole day i just felt lonely, and well, blah. tinsley and jessica (my 2 friends haha) were out of town. i wanted to go home... it was one of those days where spilling your diet cherry coke might make you cry - you know? thankfully, i made myself go to community group and was even able to put on a happy face. we talked about joseph, his sweet coat, and how he was abandoned , but still trusted in God. while I do not feel abandoned, i definitely felt removed yesterday. anyways, so I made it through community group and really enjoyed being with everyone. then, in the last 10 minutes, one of the ladies asked me how i was doing. did i say "fine"? oh no, if at all possible, i have gotten worse at hiding emotions and almost started crying when she asked. and i felt so silly complaining, but i got two sincere invitations to dinner next week from really sweet people. so, no, i don't have the same close (and accessible)relationships i had back in georgia, but i definitely can't say that i am lacking anything.


but let's talk olympics. again, phelps is amazing. (but i can't not look at his mouth when he talks. anyone else know what i mean?) but china's craziness sort of freaks me out... like replacing the girl singing at the opening ceremonies because she wasn't cute enough. way to boost self-worth, there china. and then the chinese women's gymnastic team... more like the chinese pre-pubescent gymnastic team. i'm sorry, they look CRAZY young. and glittery. ok, that was mean. but i get a creepy feeling at how obsessed china seems at having the "perfect package" thing. i could be over dramatizing. but that is what i do.