Second Guess

I just sang "Happy Birthday" to one of my BFFs Brooke on her voicemail. Half way through my wonderful rendition, I thought, "man, I really hope I didn't call the wrong person." I do the same thing almost every time I walk into a public restroom. I look at the woman's restroom sign, walk in the door and then panic and think "oh my goodness, did I accidentally go into the men's bathroom?" and look around frantically for those gross urinal things and plan an exit strategy. I always do this at Outback because they make the restroom signs cryptic.

This all sounds silly, and it is, but I just realized that I have a tendency to second guess my decisions and actions WHILE I am in the midst of them. I can't decide if this is good or bad. I'm going to not good...

My Experience...

at Passion 2010.

Worshipping with 20,000+ people will NEVER GET OLD. It is so powerful and freeing and... and... awesome, for lack of a better word.

I got to see Beth Moore speak. Twice. I LOVE her. She tells it like it is, and challenges my walk with the Lord. One particular story she shared is still on my heart... She talked about a boy who has multiple seizures in one minute and how he got to participate in the Special Olympics. He ran a race and did his best, but came in last. At the medal ceremony though, he got the gold medal. His mom asked why he was first place if he finished last, to which they told her: he was the only one who stayed in his lane... Oh ya'll, I wish I could type what Beth said next word for word, but just imagine her southern accent saying... We have to stay in our lane, do not compare our race to any other runners, but keep our eyes on Jesus, and stay in our own lane!

I LOVE IT. Every single time I find myself comparing myself to others, which unfortunately I do sometimes still, I remind myself to stay in my lane. I wish ya'll could have heard her, I know I'm not doing her justice.

Well, even though I was only there for 2 days, I feel like I am still processing everything. The conclusion I keep coming to is this: I want more Jesus and He is better than everything and anything.

Passion 2010

OHHHH MY GOODNESS.

Have I mentioned that I am leading a college girls group through my church? No? Oh, well I am. So, I was invited to go as a "leader" to Passion 2010 and of course, I said YES. Except then I had to say no, and here is why:

Passion is from Jan 2- Jan 5, and now that I am working woman, I have to think ahead about vacay time. Any other year, I'd say "whatever! take my vacation days - I don't care, just get me to Passion." But this isn't any other year. Zach deploys this spring. Again. And, I want to make sure I have time to see my NJ fam, especially after the loss of my cousin a few months ago.

So, I prayed about it, and knew that I shouldn't take any vacation days. I sadly turned down the opportunity in an email and snuck in the line "But, hey, if you have any extra tickets, I can go Sat/Sun." Ha, yea right.

Except, RIGHT! 3 days before Passion I found out they needed an extra driver - and only for the drive down to ATL. So, God worked out a way to get me to Passion, and I am so thankful that He did.

I have now wasted too much time explaining how I got there and why I am not there anymore, so I'll write tomorrow about the best, most important part: the experience.